Thursday, September 13, 2012

Sakinah's Soul Turns Sixteen

"If you can hold on, hold on. I want to stand up. I want to let go." - The Killers

Somebody please ring the bell for me so that the whole world know whose birthday is today. And as some of you might guess, its my bestfriend's birthday or you can call her Nurul Sakinah. When it comes to this girl, my  for her is no words could describe or you could say greater than Buzz Lightyear's towards Woody. Greater than Finn's towards Jake. Greater than Lilo's towards Stitch. Greater than Lyra's towards Pan. Greater than Batman's towards Robin. Greater than any two bestfriend characters in combined.

Excuse me if I have told you this a million times but I will always say this. You are:- Too good for anyone. Too strong for you to deny that you really are. Too kind to everyone arounds you. To smart to be my bestfriend. And too pretty inside out. Not to forget, too gedik to be exact. Lets count the days for us to legally call ourselves, bestfriend for 10 fucking years! I hate you I swear :-) 

(Lots of chessy words shall be written in your letter soon okay bitch?)

lots of Xs and Os,

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Broken Arrow.


Guess what? Today is the sixth day of school holiday and yet I'm still here doing nothing productive as I always did for the past months. I forget to pour the story how 'awesome' life as a form four student have treated me so far.

I remember sitting in the hall waiting on which class am I about to enter & there was standing, right in the middle of the stage, the teacher who was responsible to arrange the classes. Me and my other eight friends as well as my fellow classmates were there. I must say, days before that day comes, I was so excited like never before in my entire year of highschool. We were expecting that most of our classmates would stay together since the difference with our results is not so big afterall. But destiny proves us wrong. One by one, we move to different directions as in less dramatic word, different classes. 

To add the shittyness of my life that just happened, days later some friends of mine left to go to the boarding school to continue their studies. Which tells that I will not being able to talk to them and have eye contacts with them for the rest of my high school life, which sucks. And most of all, the toughest thing that has ever been into my life is the subjects that I am learning. I am looking forward to fail in a lot of subjects and not being dissapointed with myself as I will be join by lots of people who have the same thoughts as mine. No, just kidding. I was given a lot of choices in which streams should I take, none of it actually caught my attention. But I had to choose. It is just that I have no words to describe it and just so you know, previous big exams of mine are nothing compare to these. So if you're saying PMR is the toughest, you have no idea what's coming next. No idea. But I don't blame you, because I used to be like that, too.  

That is when life hits me right in the face. It's kinda tells me to wake up so that I will not live in my so called world, yet I still do until now. I was and still am trying to adapt this new phase of life to my surrounding and style of living. It's not like I'm trying to say that I will cast aside these old habits of mine which is sleeping and eating,but maybe lessen it in a bit. But you know, promises are made to be broken. 

Fists and kicks,